I quit my job to follow my passion.
I stepped out of my comfort zone with no real plan.
Most of you think I’m crazy and I’m totally okay with that. Well, I’m kinda okay with it.
I’m working through the guilt and shame I’m feeling when people judge me because I left my 9-5 salary, comfortable job to self-manage and build my dream future, and honestly I don’t blame them at all – why would someone take the leap into the unknown? It’s terrifying – moving from a very healthy, consistent paycheck and day-to-day routine, to the “barely-going-to-make it paycheck, what-the-hell-am-I-doing-today” type of life.
But I thought about this for months, if not years. And I’m smirking writing this, because it’s so ironic to me that I actually did this. Up until a year or so ago my dream job was to be a badass CMO and running shit. Since 2015 (the year Kyle and I got married, ironic?) I started seriously reflecting on my life and my purpose. What am I here to do? I had been comfortably working at the jewelry company since my internship in college where I developed incredible friends and mentors. I was so comfortable there. But I didn’t feel fulfilled. And I knew I needed more out of life.
In 2016 my yoga teacher decided she was going to help lead her first YTT. Without a doubt I signed right up (yoga story is for another time). I initially signed up to deepen my own practice, but within a couple of weeks in training I realized I needed to teach – I needed to teach this practice because it has saved my life and I wanted to pass it on to others. I had come to a self-awakening and realized my life purpose was to serve others. And I was so happy that I finally ‘figured it out.’ I graduated in December 2016 and immediately started teaching. I haven’t looked back.
At the same time I was becoming obsessed with nutrition and wellness. So I enrolled in another course to become an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach through the Institute of Integrative Nutrition (IIN; I graduate in September 2018). Why did I invest in another certification? So I could learn how to help others.
One of the program’s core principles is healthily living in career (you can eat all the kale you want, but if you’re unhappy in your job or relationship or any other areas of your life, your whole body is going to be off – more on this later). One speaker in particular literally changed my whole perspective, and my life. Mastin Kipp, the founder of Daily Love, discusses the concept of fear and why we run away from it rather than confront it. He asked us:
What’s the worst that can happen if you do the one thing you’re absolutely terrified of? Are you going to die?
In my case, my fears are the unknown, not knowing how to do what I want to do (i.e. build a business, launch a blog, grow an audience), and the fear of being dead ass broke. But here I am. Alive and well. First step was launching this blog.
I am also so grateful for Kyle – he’s the one that pushed me to do this. One day he said he was sick of listening to me complain and cry and talk about my ideas and not do anything about it. So he told me to do it. And I did it.
For the last few months I swirled in my head, talked it out with Kyle and some confidants, made lists upon lists of the ‘right and wrong thing to do,’ cried, screamed, had some panic attacks, meditated, prayed, journaled, and kept fighting the fear. And then I did it. And I’m not dead.
I took the leap to follow what I know I’m meant to do: help others.
I know it’s not going to be easy. I’ve already had quite a few mental breakdowns and self-doubt moments, but each day I’m getting stronger, wiser, and closer to my goal. I feel fulfilled, I know I’m living my purpose. I know I am here on this planet to serve others, to teach and guide others, to help others live their best and truest lives.
I hope you’re able to act on that one thing you’re petrified of. Really, what’s the worst that can happen? Are you going to die? It’s invigorating, refreshing, rejuvenating, exhilarating, scary, exciting, thrilling. And honestly, it’s true that life is too short and precious.
Because we all deserve to live well.